On this week's episode of "The Sopranos" (May 13, 2007: "Kennedy and Heidi"), Tony Soprano is high on peyote when he gazes across the desert and shouts, cryptically, "I get it!" Peyote, the drug of the Indians, leads to Tony's epiphany. I wonder if what Tony finally "gets" is the Ojibwe saying that Janice posted in Tony's hospital room early in Season Six (which was given an amount of airtime that seemed, at the time, out of proportion with its significance to the storyline):
"Sometimes I go about in pity for myself and all the while a great wind carries me across the sky." -- Ojibwe Saying
On first glance, the Ojibwe saying seems to mean that our short-sighted self-pity blinds us to life's blessings. (That's how Tony seemed to take it: "every day is a gift.")
But on a moment's reflection, what is so great about being carried across the sky by a great wind? Being carried across the sky by a great wind means having no control over where one is going. On the other hand, implicit in self-pity is the belief that things could have turned out differently and better. It is mourning the loss of some happier fate that one at least reasonably believed was possible. If we are all carried by a great wind that is beyond our control, self-pity makes no sense, because wherever that wind takes us (good or bad), it was destined to be so, and it could not been otherwise.
Which brings us back to Tony Soprano. The death (murder) of Christopher Moltisanti at the fingertips of Tony has obviously led to introspection and questioning on Tony's part concerning whether he did the right thing, or whether there even is such thing as "right" and "wrong." It has also led to an oppressive bout of depression, which even Christopher's Vegas girlfriend picked up. "You are a sad person," she says. So intense is the depression that it seems to have run through Tony's "rotten, putrid" genes and simultaneously affected A.J.
How appropriate, then, for Tony to find the darker, more depressing meaning in the Ojibwe saying. And how convenient. I don't know what Tony is going to do in the final three episodes, but I foresee Tony taking solace in the belief that his actions are not attributable to him, but rather the great wind carrying him across the sky.

